september when it comes

summer sweaty boy

" September when it comes....."

I can't believe tomorrow will be the first of September. Where did the summer go? Like I said earlier, I love summer, so it is always bittersweet when is comes to an end. I think that having a little one around makes you enjoy summer more. Better yet, I think that having a child makes you enjoy life more. For me, it has helped me have moments and days where I slow down and look at the clouds or a butterfly floating by or "watch the water" as jackson says. Though having a child adds to your "to-dos" it also frees you from the adult world. You have an excuse to take your shoes off and go for a walk with "just toes" (jackson lingo) and to go fishing with sticks, pretending to catch a "really big one fish."

This week we got a little sneak peak of fall weather and I have to admit I am looking forward to cooler weather. Jackson and I enjoy the break from the heat by going to the park, watching ducks, throwing rocks in the pond, and having a wonderful picnic. I don't know who enjoyed it more, jackson or mama?

It is nice to have these moments and days where I am forced to just be present. To be honest, adult life has been stressful lately. Seth and I are having to make big life decisions and figuring out how it is all going to work out. It is a good lesson in trusting God... knowing that it is all in His hands. September not only will bring the end of summer and the beginning of a beautiful fall, but the beginning of our adventures of residency. This next month the application goes in and the interviews will start. A fall full of thinking and praying. I wish I could say I am only excited, but the truth is I am anxious about making this decision. It is weighing heavy on our shoulders and hearts, and we are learning to give it over to God everyday. (even though we fight it sometimes.) Going through this reminded me of a quote I have loved since high school.

"Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because youwould not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer."

- Rainer Maria Rilke, 1903, in "Letters to a Young Poet"

So while I am trying to "live everything," I am so very thankful for moments with my little boy. When he looks at me and says "I just wobe you mom" or "come sit by me" or "lets talk." These little moments are the things that makes me stop and really live.

enjoy the last day of august & the little moments!

love

annie

p.s.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J2WilM6ljUg&playnext=1&list=PLA0A5B5F985111533

post titled after this amazing song... "first there is summer then, I will let you in... september when it comes."

Summer highlights

swimming at grandma's house

First royals game with dada and his two grandpas

jackson loves to play in the sand